Rebecca has always been a “nice girl” and played by the rules. But being dumped by her girlfriend throws her into a phase of seeking one-night stands and she doesn’t care that she’s earning herself a reputation. A rough, outdoors alley-fuck with her new acquaintance, Jess, leaves her craving more. Jess pushes her boundaries and awakens Rebecca’s need for dominance and submission. Now Rebecca has to choose whether to return to her nice girl ways with the sweetly vanilla Lucy, or to follow Jess to Berlin where a lesbian play party awaits …
Prologue – the mid-1990s
Sometimes I forget to breathe.
An assortment of paddles, straps, belts, and whips were scattered beside the bed. A dildo and a butt-plug had each been covered with a condom and placed beside a bottle of lube on the bedside cabinet. My nipples were burning and sore from the clamps that that had just been removed, and my lover leant over me to trickle whiskey from her own mouth into mine. The whiskey burned a path from her tongue to my throat and down, spreading its fire into my belly and beyond. A moment’s respite from the overload of sensations my skin had been subjected to: sharp slaps from an open palm; heavy, thudding hits from a thick belt; the tight pinching and twisting of the clamps being pulled off my nipples. She had me, and she knew it. I had crawled and begged, complied with her every command with only a whimper of dissent. And I urged her to further extremes with my screams and moans.
I watched her attentively as she lifted the butt-plug from the cabinet and dribbled lube over its pointed tip. ‘Just breathe, baby,’ she whispered, ‘let me do the rest.’
The plug looked impossibly huge and I released my breath in short gasps. ‘I can’t do it,’ I told her.