If you’re like most fans of rock and roll, then you imagine the life of a rock star is all about easy fame and fortune, big money, all-night partying, and doing what you love most. The same goes for writers and film stars, right?
Well, the money is good, the parties are happening, and we are doing what we love more than anything in the world, but getting there isn’t as easy as you think. My name is Tina Marz, and while I’m searching for my paradise, life throws me a lot of curves and hard lessons in my search for my success. It is all about hard work, long hours, and just when I think paradise is within reach…maybe it’s not. Come join me on my journey to the top, and I’ll give you an all access look at the truth about life in the spotlight…my life.
A very wise Kabbalah teacher relayed this thought to me years ago—we think we want our lives to be peaceful and quiet, but we really don’t. There are earthquakes that come that keep us from being complacent and get us moving. When you think about it, do you really want to stay in the same place or state of mind for the rest of your life? I don’t. I want to grow as a person and an artist. I may not like all the crap I have to deal with, but I’ve learned from my own mistakes—hopefully—and look at everything that’s happened as stepping-stones to another plane. It’s especially difficult when emotions are involved, which encompass everything in life. We live, rule, and die by emotion. If we didn’t we’d all be iron robots or humanoids with stone hearts. I have been accused of being all of the above, and those are the kinder labels. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and certain people are destined to come into our lives at particular times to either teach us things about ourselves or about each other. Our lives have already been laid out for us long before we were born. You can refer to that philosophy as God, fate, destiny, or whatever word gives you the most comfort. It doesn’t matter if you’re straight, gay, bi, or somewhere in between, it’s how you were meant to be. I know I sound like an old hippie with all this groovy sensibility, but for the most part, this is how I feel. Again, my thoughts change moment to moment. I may feel this way on Sunday and despise every living creature on Monday. That’s just me.