“I’m just not sure what to tell Katie. She asks so many questions, and I think some of it is my ex pumping her for info. I guess I just don’t want you to have to deal with my baggage,” I say, looking down at the ground.
He lifts me onto his lap. “Tell Katie I’m your boyfriend and leave it at that. We’re going to take things slow for both our sakes, but I like you and I think we can have something good together.”
He leans in to kiss me and my heart starts to race. It’s the softest, gentlest kiss I have ever gotten, and it blows me away. His hand slides up my back to the nape of my neck, and he pulls me in to deepen the kiss. My stomach starts to flip as heat is building down below.
I pull away and take a deep breath and look him in the eyes, “Chase…I…” I look down.
He lifts my chin up. “What?”
“I just can’t go there yet.”
He grins. “You can’t kiss me?” he says with a chuckle.
“No, that’s not what I mean, and you know it.” I smack him on the arm playfully and smile back at him. “I haven’t told you about half the shit I have been through, Chase, and like I said before I haven’t been in any sort of relationship since Kyle.”
“Ssshhh,” he says and kisses me again gently. “What did Kyle do to this beautiful head of yours to mess you up so bad?” he says softly.
“Kyle was my first serious relationship. He promised me the world, told me he was going to marry me and we would have lots of kids together. You know the whole happily-ever-after. Then all of a sudden, he started drinking a lot. He wouldn’t tell me why, but the next think I knew he was complaining all the time and I couldn’t do anything right. Some nights I was a piece of shit, and others he told me I was his world.
“One night he came home and I tried to please him sexually, which was always more about him than me anyway. I knew he had been drinking but didn’t realize just how drunk he was until it was too late. I found out when we were done that he had forgotten to use a condom and blamed me. He said I was a cock tease, and I got him so worked up he forgot,” I say, shaking my head and thinking back. “That was the night I got pregnant with Katie. He said I did it on purpose that I wanted to trap him.”
Chase looks like he’s brewing with anger. “Listen, babe, I don’t care if you did seduce him he has no right to blame you. He’s an ass for getting drunk, and if he has a problem he needs to get help.”
I try to climb off his lap, but he stops me.
“The messed-up thing was after that it just got worse. He never physically abused me, but he used to put me down all the time. He would tell me I was fat, that I was a fucked-up piece of shit, and that our baby was going to be ugly like me.”
I try to fight back the tears, but one escapes. “I had a rough pregnancy from the stress, so there were nights I wouldn’t feel like eating, and he would tell me that I was trying to kill our baby.”
Chase is rubbing my back, trying to sooth me while he listens to my story.
“I don’t know why I stayed for as long as I did. I finally told my parents, and they took me in until I was able to get on my feet. I found this place, and I have been on my own since.”
Chase pulls me to his chest so he can hold me close. “Listen, I can’t promise I’ll be perfect or that I don’t have my own issues because you know I do. But, I can promise you that I’ll never physically or verbally hurt you the way he did. It pisses me off that he treated you that way, and to be honest, it pisses me off that he’s not a better father to Katie. All I can tell you, is that I feel like you have been distant. I’m willing to go slow and earn your trust because I really want us to give this a try. I just want you to continue to talk to me.?”
He smells so good, and I’m so comfortable in his arms that a yawn escapes me. I’m exhausted, but I manage to get out an “Okay.”
“No more hiding. I would like to see you this weekend. Do you have any plans?” he says and kisses the top of my head.
“No. Kyle is supposed to take Katie, but he has already texted me trying to back out because he has no money, so at this point I’m assuming he isn’t going to show.”
“This guy is un fucking real. Well if he shows we will do something the two of us, and if he doesn’t, I guess we will have to make it PG and do something the three of us.”
I start laughing, and he smiles at me. “That’s better. I love the sound of your laughter, T. I hope I can make you smile more.”
“I’m sorry I can’t promise you it’ll be just the two of us, but I can’t count on him.”
“I hate that he pulls this shit but it is what it is.”
I lean in to kiss him, and he sticks his tongue out and rubs it along my lips, asking for entry. I open my mouth to him, and we deepen our kiss yet again. I really like the way he kisses me. He has the most amazing lips. I can’t wait to feel them on other parts of my body.
He pulls away. “I’m going to get going, now that I feel like you and I are on the same page.”
I straddle his lap, press my forehead to his. “I would like for you to stay. I’m not ready to you know have sex or anything.” I pause for a minute. “It has been a long time since someone has just held me, and I really like how I feel in your arms.” I close my eyes, hoping he says he will stay.
“Oh hell, T. How can I say no to that? Come on, let’s head to bed. We both have to be up early tomorrow.”
“You look amazing.”
I hadn’t noticed him walking up behind me so his hands hitting my body makes me jump.
He nuzzles my neck taking a deep breath. “I love the way you smell. You have no idea how much it turns me on.”
He rubs his erection against my bum to show me just how turned on he is. I let a little moan escape me as he kisses me just below my ear. He turns me around to find me smiling as he gently kisses my lips, but I want more. I begin rubbing my tongue along his lips begging him for entry, and he gladly opens, so our tongues collide as they dance together. He grabs the nape of my neck and pulls me closer as he deepens the kiss. Our tongues are tangled as he walks me backward until I’m about to hit my bed. He breaks our kiss to slip my nightie over my head. He then scoops me up and lays me in the middle of the bed.
Lying on the side of me, he glides his hand over my body feeling his way around my mounds as he kisses and nibbles my neck. I moan in appreciation because I love his strong hands on me. He starts at my outer thighs, slides up to my ass, and gives it a tight squeeze. He continues over my stomach and up to my breasts. He glides his hands over my breasts and massaging them before he squeezes my nipples between his thumb and forefinger. I moan in pleasure as he continues to massage and play with my breast and nipple as he lightly bites on my ear.
He starts kissing and licking his way down my neck over my collarbone and stops at my breast. His lips feel amazing. He lights my skin on fire. He sticks his tongue out and rolls it over my nipple before he puts it in his mouth and starts sucking it gently. He gradually increases the pressure and I feel it all the way down in my pussy.
“Chase, please, I need to feel you.”
“I know, baby. I’m going to take care of you.”
He sucks my nipple back in his mouth before he kisses down to my belly button and sticks his tongue in it. He continues his way down to my hip kissing me as he goes. He nibbles on it, and then licks down to the top of my neatly trimmed hair. He buries his face in my hair and inhales.
“My god your smell is intoxicating,” he growls.
I can’t believe he just did that, but I lose all thought as he sticks his tongue out and laps up my now dripping juices. I instantly gyrate my hips, and I run my hands through his hair.
“Lay still, baby.”
He licks my clit so softly and slowly and I moan in frustration.
“If you’re not quiet, I’ll have to gag you so you do not wake Katie.”
I instantly silence my moan as I bite his pillow. He starts his assault again on my sensitive hardened bud. My hips are moving in rhythm with his tongue, and it feels amazing. “Chase, please I want to feel you buried deep inside me.”
He continues licking, and I can feel I’m so close to exploding.
“I don’t know, baby. Are you ready?” He licks some more lapping up the juices that are dripping from me.
“I’m so ready, please.”
This time he smiles against me as he picks up the pace and pressure of his tongue. “Chase, I’m going to come, baby,” and I explode as he laps up every ounce of my release with his tongue moaning in appreciation as he does.
“Mmmm, you taste amazing.”
He climbs off me removing the pajama pants that he has starting wearing because of Katie. I think he looks totally hot in them, but I want his cock buried deep in me, so they must go. He grabs a condom from his wallet, and I can’t help the smile that spreads across my face. He’s finally going to have sex with me. I just hope that I don’t disappoint him. He slides the condom on and climbs back on the bed.
“Are you sure you’re ready for this?” He looks full of concern.
“I’m more than ready, Chase.”
He nods as he slides his fingers deep inside me, stretching me and prepping me for his size. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a cock like his. He’s long and thick, and I can’t wait to feel him inside of me. He moves over me and positions himself at my entrance. He starts sliding his length in as I wince from the pain of trying to accommodate his size.